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My parents are soo ******* i dont even know how to say it :P!? so **** my life, and everything in it, **** my parents. so im 16 years old, male and live with my parents. my life is absolutely ****, and i blame my parents. So it all started in the summer when i got caught with weed, and like 4 times after that all at home. so my parents are like fuking leeches like honestly i might as well be in a high security prison cuz thats what life at my house is like. i told them i stopped and havent done weed in a long time but they dont let me do anything, i cant go to places with friends i cant go to a friends house, just recently it was my birthday and i wasnt allowed to chill with friends. like what the ****. they are so ******* gay like honeslty. so my dad is this furious ************ who flips on the smallest things, and my mom is so ***** 2 face when shes with me she tries to talk to me like a nice mom and take care of me and act like shes my best fuking friend, but i dont fall for her **** anymore and jjust tell her to go away because i know exactly whats shes up to. so she tries to get information from me like what i did at lunch at school, who i was with, who i walked home with and other things i might do, and when my dad is there she reveals her true self and brialliantly uses everything i tell her against.
ex.
me:"so i went to that plaza near my school and ate pizza with friends"
her(when her and my dad are ***** acting stupid for no reason):"so i know exactly what u do at that plaza at lunch, fkn lier, u smoke weed with ur friends u druggy, u think we dont lknow what u do muahahahah"
me: "seriously u guys are so messed up, like u have no proof to back this up so keep blowin that air cuz u know its not true"
them: "look at you talk back to us, why are you talking back...before i can answer my dad gets all physical and picks the nearest possiable hurting object up"
me: wtff u guys are retarded i just trying to tell u the truth and ur being stupid. like seriously u guys should smoke weed too because clearly im not the insane one. u guys are paranoid freaks, gtfo.
them: so the bash me with random objects, most recently i got a clay tea pot chucked at my head, then my mom pulls my dad away to what an unexperienced person may think was to give me motherly protection. but instead she goes at it herself scratching me in the face and ****.
me:trying my hardest to cry and look upset so they might just have some pity and back the **** up."u guys are not normal, u guys need help wtf is wrong with u. just because u have no proof ur still hitting me and ****. u guys are crazy".
and this is very normal for me at my house, this reoccurs about once every two weeks if im lucky usually more often than that.
like i need somebody elses view on this, because i am sure that i am perfectly fine here, and they are the ones you need to go smoke up to calm themselves down. i think they need a life like wtf, please tell me if im the only guy with parents like these. like wtff and its not only when they suspect ive smoked weed, it start out by me joking with my little brother or accidently making him cry, or doing bad on a test or like honestly the smallest **** ever.
like idk what to do, im not depressed or some **** like that but i think if this continues i might just turn into a retard. and my 7 year brother usually witnesses all of this and i even tell them to send him to sleep or whatever because i dont want him to see this **** and get scarred. because i loves him alot and dont want him to get effected by this ****.back to my mom: so when i go to the gym daily she raids my ***** room looking for stuff i shouldnt have and is always sticking her nose in my business. and its happened so many times that i think im having a son to mother conversatin without my dad finding out about what we talk about, but it comes back to bite me in the *** when at the next family explosion that same discussion comes out of my dads mouth. like WTF *** my life for reals.
on to my dad: hes honestly so gay. like before i used to have different friends coming by all the time to chill, and i would go places. and now my dads like "oh ur such a loser look u have no social life or, close friends" and im thinking "hey **** face u killed that and took all that away by not allowing me to go places and suspecting EVERY friend of mine". and yes alot of friends he thought we bad, they told me that they seen my dad watching them at the park and drive by their house and told them not to talk to me anymore on the phone. like he keeps telling me that he has evidence and if he goes to the police he will get me arrested and all my friends as if im running a multi million dollar drug cartel out of their house. XD.
like i just want some room, i dont have a self phone because i lost my old and did not want a new one, after i found out my parents had been tracking all my texts with girls and stuff through someonline account that even has messages | | Be realistic just a little. Why they do that? Isn't that because they love you and care? You are a lucky guy have such parents. Some parents are so busy don;t know what's going on with their guys. For sure you know they love you too. | I told my mom i was gay and she...? totalllly flipped out in fact she got so drunk to cope with it that she wrecked our car totled it. she told everyone in our family including my dad who shes been divorced to for 10 years ughh i swear i hate her so now im staying with my sister for the summer and my whole family including my sisters are in denial there like"your not gay its just a phase why would u wanna be gayy" wtff its not my fault its not my choice and its not a ******* phasewhat should i do? i called my mom and she was drunk and told me your a ******* ****** your not myy son go live with yerrr dad it was so sad but whatever i hate herrrr!!!!!!!! HELPPP MEEEEEEEE I NEED ADVICEEEE | Your info is telling me your mother didn't take up being drunk just because you told her you were gay. Sounds ot me liek she has a problem with alcohol and you only provided one more excuse for her to hit the bottle. But she may well have wrecked the car another time even if you had stayed in yrou closet. So, unles syou can prove me wrong, do not blame yourself for her drinking or for her wrecking the car; those are her doing totally. She is totally responsible for choosing to drink to excess.
ah yes, the "it's just a phase thing". Well for those who choose to believe that, why not let them carry on intheir ignorance and not make waves. You knwo yourself an dyou know you like guys so that's all that counts. If they choose to believe you will go back to gals then leave it at that. Maybe when you and your bf invite them to your wedding they might wake up and discover they were wrong. In the meantime ignorance is bliss (for them) so let it be.
One other little thing with the phase philosophy is if they believe it is a phase that leaves you free to have a bf since they won't take it seriously anyway.
So, let them all stew in their own juices. Of course be friendly with them instead of nasty but don't try to cure their problems. And you are welcome to dislike their opinions and actions but try not to hate them.
As for where to go, find a family member who is the least freaked or even accepting and if they will have you then go live with them. If no one in yrou family wants anything to do with you then feel free to find a new family where you can be accepted and go from there. Of course your age may well have an influence on how free you are to live where you choose... | I HATE My Step Dad! What Do You Think? I ******* hate my step dad like you wouldn't believe!!!!!! I wish I didn't have to feel this way about a person or that I wouldn't have to have such horrible thoughts, but he's the reason why I do. I just hate him. Hate is a powerful word but I absolutely HATE him! He came into the picture when I was about 6 yrs old. I remember at first he would try to buy me stuff in order to win me over but it was only because he was trying to impress my mom. He kept spoiling me and once he had won me and my mom over then that's when the asshole who I have hated my whole life started to come out. He made me start calling him dad which at first was a little weird because I had never called anybody dad before and I had barely met him and he already wanted me to start calling him dad. I was a little guy so I just started doing it. Then he would pick on me, I was a little guy and he would start telling me that I behaved like if I was gay and that I looked like nerd. He would boss me around alot and wanted me to do everything his way even brushing my teeth his way, because “he was always right." Then I remember how he humiliated me infront of my friends when I was a little bit older, he thought I was gay ( which I am not) and secretly told my friends to start picking on me and treating me like **** so I guess I could toughen up or something. I later found out he was the insecure one because when he was younger everybody thought that he was gay. He's always making me do stuff that he's to lazy to do. He's always pickig on me. He trys to make me feel like if I was a dumbass. Everytime we talk it is always about what I am doing wrong. He never has had a father son conversation with me. Every conversation I have ever had with him was about him bitcchin at me. Then one time when I finally had enough courage to tell him how I really felt, that I felt like a slave both him and my mom started bashing on me like you wouldn't believe. He's always asking me how I feel so he can understand me more and everytime I have tryed to tell him he bitchhes at me about the way I feel. And he's always complaining about why I never talk to him about stuff. I'm constantly thinking about suicide. I tryed it once and he didn't even say anything about it. I downed a whole bunch of pills and the only one that cared was my mom. He favors my sisters over me because they are his biological guyren. Why do I have to live with him? I have never felt so much hate for anyone or anything before. I just started college and he still picks on me, tries to make feel inferior and tryes to control me like you wouldn't believe. The thing that sucks is that I hate him so much but I need him because without him I'd probably be homeless. I should be thankful but I hate him. What do you think? | Reposting exact same question gets the same answer
You just started college. Great, good smart move. Stick to it. Bury yourself in your studies and pass quickly. Take as many hours as you possibly can and maintain at least a 3.0 or better. In a few short years, you are out of there. You will have the rest of your life to not make the same mistakes. Prove to him that you are not the dumbass that he thinks you are. Grit your teeth and get your degree. | My dad can be a total buttfayse sometimes.. Hear me out? I know this is my fault. I can't be the person he wants me to be. So here's the story.
I'm a fourteen year old girl. I'm gay(yeah, thus why it's here) but he doesn't know that. I have the whole boy look, and I think it has made my dad uneasy. His friends always ask if I'm gay to him. He hates it.
He had a girlfriend a few years back, had two guys with her, then broke up. She threatens to take away his custody rights from him, and personally, i don't see why he doesn't just go to court. But whatever.
He's just started to reject me. He "forgets" to keep the doors unlocked, "forgets" to invite me out tothe city. He'll just randomly leave one day, and won't be back for a few. He barely talks to me. WHenever he does, he's yelling at me for stuff that isn't my fault. (e.g., the kitchen tap breaking when he was doing the dishes.)
I pull my weight around here. Cleaning, cooking, washing, dishes. He goes out the back and drinks. And gets stoned. He comes inside, expects a cooked dinner and everything.
Yet he won't do anything with me. My brothers get all the attention, rights, sympathy, whatever. My older sister is put ahead of me, too.
I used to be dads favourite. I've Always looked up to him as much less a fatherly figure, but a friend. In some aspects, he was once a god to me...
But now he's just a stranger. Like as if I board here.. Igo to school, come home, cook tea for him. (I don't eat the food he does. ick. >.<)
Then do my homework, have a shower, yadda yadda BED!
I've often been referred to as his son, but I'm so confused right now. Him and his girlfriend are back together.. Now he barely talks to me. I've been shoved aside. It's just me and him living together.
How can I get him to want to talk to me? I hate this ******* rejewcted feeling.
(P.S., it's long, i know. ineeded a vent.)
(P.P.S. I'm not an immature, overreacting teenager. I just miss my dad, okay?) | Oh, my dear! This situation is difficult. Firstly, let me say that I admire your attitude. You know what you are at such a young age! You also realize that you shouldn't reveal the information to one and all at this time in your life. You're playing it smart, try to continue this for awhile.
OK, he has not overtly rejected you, at least I dun see that from your question. You need to start showing him your love, my friend. Ask him if you and he can go do some of the things that you always used to do together. Do something really special for him. You say you do all the cooking. Maybe a very special dinner, with all the things that he loves to eat, also something hard to cook (so he will see the effort that you are making...lol) Maybe do the dinner thing on a regular basis, once or twice a month, kinda just make it for the two of you, too, in order to spend some quality time together. You could also take him out for a special lunch or something, but with you being 14, there could be a cash crunch on that. Does he like sports? (do you?). Maybe he'd like to see a game together with you. These are just suggestions, my dear. You are a smart cookie, you'll think of a lot on your own, too.
Tell him that you love him, not every second of the day, but when the opportunity arises, TELL him. Maybe he's worried about your relationship, too, and could use a little reassurance. Men often act out, I oughta know, been one for 52 years now...lol. Give him hugs, too, sometimes, even if that is not the way you have acted in the past when your relationship was better. Become the "perfect" daughter, tomboyish, but perfect. Sounds like you run the household. Confer with him on regular household routines, even if he's not interested. Knowing that you are there and that he can count on you to take your household responsibilities seriously is important to him. Even if, as I said, he does not seem interested, it is more important to him than you may think.
OK, well enough! I'm ranting, too! lol. I feel for you. I dun have the best relationship with my father, either. But it did take me until 35 years old to realize that that was on him. Let's hope your Dad is NOT very much like mine... A big hug to you, TD! I wish you all the luck in the world!
Auntie Koo | Please help how to deal with being gay and the stress? i have known i was gay ever since i can remember i never accepted it and still wish it werent true but know i can not change it. i realized that after praying and crying everynight to this god everyone seems to believe exists ....not saying gods not real just not the one most people seem to worship for hating everything thats not compatible with society...anyway this all happened for about 3 months about a year and a half ago until i tried to kill myself....my main problem now is just dealing with it and its hard being in a CATHOLIC school where the word gay and homosexual is banned from the vocabulary in ALL WAYS accept how to bash it ....anyway i have always put up a good shield to not let anyone figure me out i have come out to a couple of close friends who were completely surprised and didnt believe me for a while ....the thing is i have a deep crush on a boy couple boys at school and after accepting the fact that they are both straight i cant talk to them like i used to be able to and i have been friends with them since 3rd grade ...im a junior in high school now...when they talk to me i start feeling angry sad and depressed along with completely in love with the voice im hearing ....i cant concentrate on what they are saying and i cant say anything after i did here it....i wish i could come out and i dont think it would be that big of a deal with my friends but if thier parents ever found out they would prolly get me kicked out of the school and make damn sure thier sons didnt hang around me ....they are mostly rich political and doctor guys whith parents that have a lot of power in this small town and if my parents found out i would definately be in hell ...my mom is a drug addicted bar tender and my dad is a ''devout catholic'' accept when hes beeing a hardcore alcoholic and my step mom wont talk to her brother at all because hes gay and she told her brother ''get the **** out of my house you ******* *****'' a week after he came out of the closet...after that i went into deep depression and tried to kilmyself because if a brother and sister could be like that then what is everyone else like....anyway my dad would prolly end up accepting it but hating me at the same time my step mom would get a divorce and my dad would drink more ALL THE TIME ...i cant focus on school at all because of all the bullshit goin on between my mom myself and my dad being a different person every night....i dont know how to deal with my life right now and if i dont figure something out ill fale school and maybe try suicide again which is something i never want to do again....ill tell you some about me so you can better help....my stepdad (before my moms drug problems) was a very good mechanic he taught me everything he knows and we are still father and son even tho i can hardly get ahold of him maybe once or twice a year....i accel in trade school i have won many contests and have had a couple of jobs most grown men would kill for of course only during the summer...i was on the wieght team in 9th grade i was repping 250 and have been strongest viking at my school since i was a freshman...i have never had a girlfriend and just act not interested in havin a relationship around my friends and they accept that...i have done good for myself i have had a lot of achievements and completed a lot of goals not to mention i have built a 91 chevy c1500 that will run 7:53 on the quarter mile something i am most proud of and i currently during school work on cars in my dads garage for cash...also i get depressed when my family puts me down for wanting to be a grease monkey since they are paying for me to get a good education so i can be a doctor or lawyer ....they tell me stuff like ill never be able to make it and its hard and doesnt make a lot of money but i know better and get over that quickly and one last thing about me .....i dont want to see any kind of bullshit with you ******* flammers out there ...but really why would anyone **** with someone who barely gives a **** about his own life cus ''god'' know i dont give a **** about yours, flammers | | Honey, its your life... If you like working on cars then do it. Money isn't everything, although I suppose with all the people in your family with some sort of an addiction it might be. You seem to have your head on straight and are going in the right direction. Gay or not, who cares. It's your life you have to be the one that likes you, not anyone else. Your almost out of school, concentrate on what you love, and if its fixing cars or lifting weights, do it! It's called the future and its yours, make the best of it to make YOU happy not everyone else. | Terrible Household/Family!??!? Okay, so I'm 15 and openly gay. My parents are assholes. My dad is a drunk. He's not abusive, well sometimes, but not often. He verbally harasses me though. I can't even talk to him because he ends up yelling. And when I try and say something back he say's "**** You" and walks away! He brings up gay jokes like "Go suck a dick." or "Go live with your boyfriend." All he does is yell yell yell and when I try and sleep he bangs pots and pans together or yells all night so you can't sleep. He smokes through the house and leaves the smoking room door open even after I ask him kindly if he could keep it closed, because the smell is disgusting. When I yell at him for it he tells me its his house and he'll give me lung cancer if he wants. Second hand smoke.
My mom is a *****. All she does is say what a terrible rude son I am. She's always ******* defending my dad. Somehow I also provoke/start with him even though he's the one complaining about every little detail/problem he has. She tells me I never do anything to help and says that she'll send me to foster care.
My brother is a RAT that gets me in trouble everyday and ruins any relationship I try and get. He never gives me any privacy and he's always hitting me and swearing. But god knows if I touch my parents little angel or say something rude to him I'm in trouble. He's 13.
All I do is clean and clean and do work in this house. I do my own laundry because my moms lazy. I clean because she's lazy. But all they do is mess it up again and tell me I never do anything right and I'm useless. That I never help. I don't go to school much that much anymore (Sophomore) because I'm always tired and depressed from staying up all night crying/thinking. I'm completely un-motivated. I don't even really care about anything anymore. It's not as easy as being positive and wanting to do good. It's beyond that now. I've been dealing with this all my life. I'm harassed at school, hell even one of my teachers gives me dirty looks and makes me look stupid in front of the class even though I'm smart! And the other one treats me unfairly and doesn't let me write about standing up and given rights even though it's a media class and we're writing! My counselor only acts like none of this is a big deal and says to get an outside counselor, although she is a very sweet lady. Just a terrible counselor. My principle is an asshole. I really have nothing left. I don't want to kill myself, but I don't want to live like this either. Sorry this is so long, but does anyone know how I feel? What can I do? I don't wanna call CPS because I'm shy as hell and I don't even like talking to counselors. Whenever I open up they tell me to get over it. And I don't want to be in an unfamiliar place with risk of being judged or mistreated. And I'm not living in a damn home full of guys. Thank you to anyone who finished this and or helps. <3 | | call the police for advice. | How to tell my parents I'm an Atheist? I grew up my entire life in a Christian household. My Grandmother was VERY religious. In fact, she helped fund money to rebuild her church in the late 90s. This being my Mother's Mom. Ironically, she isn't as religious as my Dad. She still does the sign of the cross when I'm driving her to the grocery store... so that's how I know she still has faith, but she's lost some of it since my Grandmother's passing. I can tell. My Father, who hasn't been to church in YEARS, always references god for everything. It's so bad, I asked him "If god told you to kill me, would you?" He told me that he would not hesitate to kill me, but then went on to say "I don't think god would ever tell me to do such a thing in the first place, but even if he did, Abraham didn't kill his son, because god stopped him." That is one part of the Bible that made me lose faith. Why would god order a person, especially someone of faith, to kill his only son. WTF, god? That, and I am well equipped, or at least have a decent understanding of astronomy, that everyone in my family seems to not have. I know once I tell my Father, he will utterly flip out! I think my Mom will be more understanding, but she won't take kindly to it as well. I honestly think my Dad would rather me be gay than a non-believer. My Sisters too are religious. They go to church every Sunday, as their husbands are what enforces this upon them. They stopped going after my Grandmother's passing, but once they married, they started going again. I didn't go my Niece's baptism, and this really pissed my Dad off. Again, the irony starts... because my Sister and my Brother-in-law didn't mind. But he made a huge deal out of it. Saying "god will never forgive you for this, It's your Niece, and you didn't go to her baptism?" He's the biggest ******* asshole!! If there was a criteria for getting into heaven, I assure you, he probably isn't getting in. My twin Brother, who is much more tolerable to speak to about this subject, was very understanding. We've lost contact for about a year, and I found out... that he isn't even sure about god. He say's he's on the fence. A Agnostic basically. But, like me, lies to our parents and other siblings about his belief. Any answers would be appreciated. | | If your parents can't accept it, then **** them. | Consistently bullied at work, what do I do? I've worked at this shithole for 3 years and I haven't been treated well since I started. First let me tell you about my personality, i'm very much an introvert and I like to keep to myself . I'm quiet with certain people I work with because I don't know them well. There are many flaws to my appearance such as : very skinny, look unhealthy, big head, skinny face, dark circles under my eyes. I pretty much look like a typical drug addict [ which I am not ]. When I first started working there it was in grade 12 and everything was great, I was looking healthier as ever due to weight training and being more active. Alot of girls liked me at work that I didn't know about.
Then about a year passes, I take a year off college and I start partying alot. I start to become unhealthy and very uninterested in anything. My bosses son [ who is the main bully ] starts to become a little comfortable with me and we are acquaintances for a while. Then he starts to get a little too comfortable. I had a mop haircut at this point. And he would mock me consistently " Get a haircut ! ", which I didn't take offensively at all because I thought he was joking. Then the whole work population are consistently saying " Dean get a haircut ! ". Considering this work environment is filled with ego-maniacal italians, who only think short hair is valid, I didn;t take these insults seriously. Then the insults started to revert to my personality, " Dean have you ever talked to a girl ? Are you gay ? " . This I found EXTREMELY insulting, and I would hear it whenever I worked with the bosses son and his friend. Personally I think every woman who works there is an airhead so I don't really bother which is what noone understands. THEN the insults took a turn back to my appearance " Dean you look like an alien , Dean stop smoking weed you stoner ". I usually shake off all these insults as nothing, but it takes a toll on me and I can;t just ignore it. THEN the insults took another turn MAKING FUN OF MY VOICE. I have a really low voice and everyone makes it seem like I sound like a caveman. Every time I talk they imitate it, I can't say anything anymore. Now i'm starting to question myself " maybe my voice is weird ? " and these are not thoughts that I wanna get when my self-esteem is already at its lowest. I do sometimes attempt to verbally abuse these bullies but it really does nothing because of their massive egos and following at work. AND the worst insult I hate hearing which has started recently. Whenever I make a minor mistake at work it seems to be everybody's queue to say " Dean your so ******* stupid, stop doing drugs , your presence makes me dumber". And I really hate when people insult my intelligence because I KNOW i'm more intellectual then every ******* dumb guido at my work. AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, today I went to work and at the end of the day [ i work at a supermarket ] I was putting away some vegetables and the bosses son comes up to me doing his whole routine and I said " Why don't you tell your dad to buy you another Audi you spoiled ******* prick ". Then he looked at me , not phased at all, and said with a grin " your honestly the ugliest guy ive ever seen ". Yup, still thinking about that one. Anyways without doing beating the **** out of everyone in the store [ which is impossible ] is there any alternatives to get out this ******* horrible social mess i'm in. I'm nice to everyone and this is what I get back from them... ;[ | I know how you feel...I was bullied as well.
www.direct.gov.uk/en/Employment/R… | Why is London, UK so homophobic!? Why don't americans every believe me when I say London, UK is so homophobic, believe me.. I was born here, raised here, lived her all my life, went to school and college here, worked here I know what its like..
JUST WATCH THIS VIDEO IF YOU DON'T BELIEV ME
www.youtube.com/watch?v=j3naRIiXTSg
forward to 1:33 and keep watching everyones views on homosexuality, and that's not even bad, I showed my teacher this and she told me why don't I do a study on homophobia in London, so I went to london town with a notepad and pen and wrote down what everyone said about it, I asked exactly 245 people and 238 of them said things like "they should die" "its weird" "they have weird sexual prerferences" "there minds are weird" "they are devils trying to kill gods creation of man and woman"
then instead of going down town I went to my old school and asked all the 16-18 year olds and I only asked 77 of them but every single of one of them laughed and said "its sick" and really bad stuff I won't write here....
My mom has 9 siblings, my dad has 11, they all have over 5 guys, I have over 50 1st cousins, everyone is straight, gay is not metioned in my family, when a show about it was on the tv the other day my dad was like "errrrr I don't like even hearing the word sick (bad words)" and my cousin was like "turn that *beep* off ******* *beep*" and going crazy saying he didn't want his 4 year old son to grow up and be some guy of mutant animal. (ie: gay)
me and my cousins were saying "what if one of our brothers were gay" and they were like "errrr man I'll disown him thats unhuman" and worser stuff, gay is a huge cuss word here to.
I've actually never met a gay in my whole life, I have a friend from california and she came here and said she never knew homophobia was so bad
Google "Reports of homophobic crimes rise in London" its got so bad here some gay guy got stabbed in the leg by 5 boys the other month. and 2 girls and one guy beat up a gay guy until he was in a coma in west london a few months ago.
I as a joke told my 12 year old brother to ask his teacher "what was gay" and he said his two teachers who are male were like "where did you hear that disgusting word"
also I talk to a gay american on the internet and I told him to sign up for a english dating site Profilepic and he said he was listed as "gay" and his never had so much homophobic comments to him in his whole life!
I CAN'T BELIEVE PEOPLE DON'T NOTICE THIS! THE FIRST TIME I EVER SAW A GAY WAS IN FLORIDA IN AUGSUT 2008!
just watch that video and see homophobic in london and google "homophobic hate crimes rise in london" | What the hell part of London do you live in!?!?!?!
London has some of the best Lesbian and gay clubs in the country! It's right near Brighton, Gay capital. I feel really bad for you, it just sounds like your area is terrible. I mean there's homophobia everywhere, but I cannot believe that it's so high. You must have done it in a really small area. I bet if you went into the City centre or all round different parts, you would get more accurate results.
I'm a lesbian I'm going to Uni this year near London, and as there aren't any gay bars there so I'm going to be going down to London quite a bit. You've really freaked me out. Please tell me your from the east end not like round soho or ealing. Cuz thats where I'll likely be going and don't fancy getting stabbed. | What do you think about what my father said to me? I'm a twenty year old male in college aspiring to become a lawyer. I work hard, really hard, no doubt about that. Now that I'm 20 and becoming a man and I'm realizing just about everything that has been said to me from guyhood until now. It's not that I sit and ponder on the past, it's just that the past helps me predict the future. And that's the honest truth. I'm not a rich or privileged person, just a person who tries to perform his best. Most people don't do that, so if we were to ever meet I would probably seem a little bit different than others. Well since I gave a lil background info on me, back to the question. When I was 15 my dad was drunk and he called me a "FAG", which is the lowest of the food chain for my dad. For my dad, if you're a FAG he can see a mob hanging you in the middle of town and it won't bother him. He came home one night and I was minding my own business. He started talking to me and I said that I do not want to be like him when I grow up. I want to be something great(in my mind at that time, that meant the most famous and richest person in the world). He called me a FAG and kept calling me a FAG for about 30 mins. He was on the living room sofa crying saying "my son's a FAG". I have two other sisters. One was there and she wasn't saying anything. My mother was like "he is not a FAG, stop calling him a FAG!" I was sitting in the recliner dumbfounded. It was hurting my feelings but I couldn't cry or move or nothing. I couldn't say anything and I always had something to say; especially when I was a teenager. I was shocked to hear this from my own father. I received it throughout my whole middle school life so I was use to being talked about from the outside world. But my father? Now that I'm twenty I really and truly and honestly hate him to his ******* bone and I feel it in mine. Even though it was about 5 yrs ago. Just because someone's life looks easy doesn't mean it is..haha I promise. And I have nothing against gay anybody. I swear I understand your struggle. And guys if you ever find a gay person who has an attitude and is ready to whoop everybody's ***. This is why because of stupid people. And if you're a parent reading this, make sure you treat your guy nice. But that's only if you don't want them to hate you or if you want them to take care of you because you will become old. And that's a fact... One thing that still kind of hurt is when I use to dream, my father 'was' included in my aspirations and goals. | | It's difficult. It's the people that hurt us the most that we are to love the most. I don't expect you to know me without a response as large as your question but i do know how you feel. My father and i had gotten physically violent when i was younger. It hurt because fathers are supposed to protect and defend, be our models for God, not abuse and oppress. I've wanted to beat the . . . . out of him just for existing but now that I'm older (also 20) i know i could and that's what hurts the most, because it wouldn't be fair because i'm bigger than him and i would be just like him. |
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